"16 & Pregnant"

This blog is NOT about the show that comes on it's about me. When iWas young iGrew up with both of my parents until the age of 8 then my grandmother passed away & my father left my mother & I not even a year after she died. Needless 2 say that hurt me badly..Well since my father left, my mom was raising me the best way she knew how. I would see my dad on occasion up until iWas 14 iSaw him here & there. Well i'm almost 18 yrs old now. My mother loves me & iLove her but we don't get along all that great & she tends 2 do alot of hurtful things 2 me that hurt me 2 my soul & make my heart feel lyke she ripped it out of my chest & stomped on it because when someone close 2 yu lyke a parent does something 2 hurt yu, it hurts yu the most. So at the age of 16 iRebelled against her & lost my virginity. Wish iHadn't, iEnded up pregnant the FIRST time iHad sex & we used protection & iWas on birth control so before you say something smart lyke yu don't believe in condoms..WE USED ONE. Now, iAm not for abortion now & nor will iEVER be. iBelieve that if yu were woman enough 2 lay there on yur back yu should be woman enough 2 take care of yur responsibilities, & iDon't wanna hear the whole can't afford a baby issue cuz yu shoulda thought about that before yu had sex. So iTake full responsibility for my stupidity. Now my son's name is Jaiden D'Andre Dale. D.O.B 3/28/09. iLove him 2 DEATH & iWould die 4 him. He's my world & tho' iRegret losing my virginity before marriage iDon't regret having him cuz he's the best thing that ever happened 2 me. iJust wish iCould've had him after marriage. iWasn't thinking & i'm not justifying what iDid in any way but iDidn't have a real role model 2 prevent this from happening. So alright ya'll are probably wondering where my sons father is, right? Well this a very painful subject 4 me but i'm getting tired of repeating myself so here it is. He got shot when iWas 3 months pregnant & iDidn't even get the chance to tell him.. it's been hard but lyke Alicia Keys' song iAm a Super Woman =). iWork iGo 2 nursing school so i'm doing what iGotta do. Now to those stupid jerks out there that talk ish on my formspring & twitter about me being a young parent..Yu are NOT GOD so therefore yu cannot judge me & what yu say does not matter. This is something i'll have 2 take up with him on judgement day so plz just stop with the rude remarks & grow up. In conclusion iWould just lyke 2 say NOBODY is pefect but God & EVERYONE makes a dumb decision in life iWon't use the word "mistake" because my child is not a mistake..mommy loves yu Jaiden <33 ^_^. Thanks 4 reading everyone.