Lost

This isn't a poem..or maybe it is..idk. I'm just writing everything i'm feelin' right now. If love wasn't so complicated would it even be worth it? If yu could have it yur way 24/7 would yur way be "perfect?" Nothing nor no one on this earth's surfice is flawless, trying to let go was or maybe is the hardest..i'm lost when i'm w/yu but in a good way & lost in heartache when iTried 2 let yu fade. Can't be with & can't be w/out yu friendship is key but can iDo w/out yu? Hurting badly but still smiling through my blinding tears, and though it's only been months it feels as if it's lasted for years..If iTurn my back on yu & walk away 4ever that'll still leave me w/a cliff hanger, coulda woulda shoulda been but it wasn't, or was it? Don't wanna hurt yu & iDamn sure don't wanna hurt myself, might have 2 be selfish for this 2 help. Im in an indecisive state & iReally don't know what 2 do but letting yu go is lyke having the sun w/out the moon. Without both the other wouldn't function right leaving yu alone would just leave me w/long days & even longer nights. iNeed a clue or some kinda sign cuz if iDon't get 1 my mind is gna continue 2 run at its wildest..iKnow yur reading so plz..help me decide this..Lots more 2 say but my mind is zoned signin' out w/these words "i'm so far gone."